life

We do not remember everything in life. Life is more about present than future. Whether we like it or not, we forget things ! But, present is something which is always there . Its right there in front of you ! Do whatever you want with it.

There is no way we can move faster in time and see how tomorrow will be.Now, an optimist will say :- Its your today that shapes tomorrow ! A pessimist will say :- No one can predict...etc etc

Lets kick the part of our brain that tells us all this for a few seconds.

I'm trying to talk about life, as seen from the eyes of a person who has nothing left to aim for right now, who has no regrets/happiness of past, a person who believes that at least for some time during the day, seeing things the way they are and feeling them for sometime without thinking at all about Past or Future is pretty much everything a person should be doing because we always live in the present and Present is what actually exists.
Obviously we never do that. Life is so demanding, we can't afford to do that. But, let me try.

There are certain memories which never die. Sometimes, they come back to you in a very unexpected manner, at a very unexpected time.
For me, one of these memories is from my childhood perhaps 20 years back.
The memory consists of a feeling, maybe a state of my Mind Body and Soul and perhaps that produces an image which I remember. Or I remember it, and that produces the feeling. I don't know.
Its an image of an evening with Sun set some time back but still some light can be seen across the horizon. It has not started to rain viciously but thunders of lightening streaking across the horizon just enough to pause you for a moment.
And rain pouring not heavily, not lightly, just enough to keep you put inside the house.
And every twenty seconds or so you see the lightening strike somewhere and the sound follows a few seconds later.
And sitting in your house, across the horizon far away you can see the open fields. There is no sound whatsoever to distract you in that day, except the lightening thunders and the raindrops.

Its 12:35 A.M. May 16th 2010 in Bangalore. I'm at my Sister's place in Yelahanka.
Its raining outside and the feeling is exactly the same as I said above. Though there is no sunset, but the sound of raindrops and the lightening, has already put me in a different State of Mind Body and Soul which is the same as the one 20 years back.
And I can clearly recall the moment or my state and Me that existed 20 years back on one fine day.
Its very easy to classify this as a memory recall and move on. But again we can't move on ! Coz, we're thinking only about the Present.

Some memories are so intriguing, they force you to think about them. Perhaps, sometimes you feel like clinging on to them and not let them go. What if maybe we can stay still in time to do that.
To be honest, sometimes an emulation of a memory is so vivid, one doesn't know if that day is here again or its just another new day.
The revival of such a moment, is far more than just another memory recall. If you think only in the Present, and put logic aside, you may see what the point here is.
I know that there is something here which has got something to do with that 5 year old mind that once saw an image and the fact that 20 years later suddenly it is being felt so deeply.
A reason which does not technically explain how it happened.
A reason which explicitly explains why it happened.
Life could be a littler more than randomness that surrounds it and destiny as such may or may not exist , but there could be a rule or maybe a path that can be chosen at every moment in life and if somehow you are able to connect all the dots ; and understand why a particular thing happens around you or with you and why it is being seen or felt, you might dive deeper and perhaps know what existence really is !
Perhaps the dots all lie right beside us in the space time curve and we don't know what to look for and how to access them. We don't see them, perhaps because we see the wrong questions.
Perhaps, we don't know what the real question is !
What is life and how does it work ? Is the human body just a biological device that makes you see, feel and remember things ? Or, could it be that We see, feel, remember, think....and that is why we exist in the first place. Could there be a deeper answer to existence in general, much deeper than the one we know ?

A new beginning

This is like a personal diary now.
Lets see how it goes
Its a wed morning. Came to office early morning at 3:30 AM and somehow decided to start blogging on Google. Though I do have an earlier account :- http://python.mindsay.com
But using Google comparatively is easier any day.